Hello friends, long time no talk! If you’re here for the recipes, use the tabs at the top, or the search bar over to the right, to find what you’re looking for. Otherwise, stick around and let’s chat a while.
As you may have noticed from the title (and the picture above)… I got a haircut! I’m pretty stoked about it, too. I’ve been wanting to shave my head for ages, and I’ll talk all about why in just a moment.
But first, I wanted to offer an explanation and some thoughts about why I haven’t been sharing recipes for the past few months. I know the advice online would say, “don’t mention to your readers when you’ve been absent” — and if you’re new or just stopping by for the first time, you can skip this bit if you want — but for my long-time readers, I feel like I owe you all some words.
It all started back in January, when I published a recipe every day for 30 days. That was a lot of fun, but also a lot of work, and it burned me out. That was to be expected, and I planned on taking a break from blogging for a month or so to recover. But when February ended, I was still feeling uninspired, and before I knew it March and April had passed, too. I still felt just as burned out, and for the longest time I didn’t understand why.
Then I realized that it didn’t have to do with January, at all. It had to do with the pressures I felt as a content creator, which had been slowly wearing away at me over the past year.
For those of you who are bloggers and social media experts, you probably already know what I’m talking about. The constant striving to keep in the know, making sure you’re optimizing your content for google, facebook, pinterest, etc., the daily struggle to stay on top of changing information, algorithms, trends. None of which has anything to do with the content you create, or the reason you put it out there in the first place.
Thinking about those things is necessary in the online world, but it can quickly become the death of creativity, drive, and passion. I actually contemplated retiring this blog all together, because keeping up with it all seemed so antithetical to what I wanted to do: to be an honest person, making honest recipes, fueled by my own inspiration and love of cooking for those around me.
Instead, I decided to step away, take some deep breaths, and distance myself from any kind of preconceptions about “doing it right.” I’m not here to follow google’s algorithm or create recipes based on what Instagram thinks will be trendy. I’m here to be myself, because I want to be, because it’s fun.
That means there might not be a recipe every week… or even every month. It means I’ll be sharing only the best of the best, the ones I’m really excited about, and they’ll come when they naturally do. And it means I might write about other things more often — so if you’re a die-hard foodie and aren’t interested in other topics, you might find we aren’t a good fit (don’t worry, I won’t be offended).
For a long time I’ve had the notion that seeing myself without hair would be a bit like seeing a celebrity without their makeup. That maybe, just maybe, there’s a more authentic person underneath. Hair defines so much about how we look, and how other people see us… and it’s the first thing they see.
And yet, hair has nothing to do with who we are. Take it away, and you’re left with just a person’s face — their eyes, their smile or their frown, their personality.
I realize there are a lot of negative things associated with a woman shaving her head — the first thought most of us have is (if it isn’t cancer) it’s some kind of mental breakdown, an emotional failing, a response to something tragic or traumatizing.
I assure you, this is none of those things. I am diagnosably sane, I don’t have cancer, and shaving my head was pure joy. Let me tell you why.
10 Reasons Why I Shaved My Head (in no particular order):
- As I mentioned above, I wanted to see me, underneath all the hair. Hair can be fun, and beautiful, and sexy, but ultimately it has nothing to do with who we are as people — it’s just a natural accessory, and I wanted to know what it would be like to take it off.
- I was curious to know what I would look like. I’ve always been adventurous with my hairstyles, but you never know until you go all the way what the shape of your head is like, if your ears stick out, or if you’d look totally badass. (I was hoping for the latter, and am happy to say I think I look pretty good. But even if I didn’t, it’s only hair, and hair grows back.)
- Just for fun! Before shaving my head, I didn’t tell anyone (except my husband, my mother, and one close friend). With everyone else, I’ve been savoring the surprise on their faces as they see me.
- It is liberating as all get out. It’s kind of freeing to break out of the mould that “girls should have hair,” but on a more tangible level, it’s just plain wonderful to not have to deal with it. No washing, drying, fussing, brushing, shedding. No hair in my face, hair in the drain, hair on my clothes, hair tickling my neck when I’m trying to sleep. No bad hair days or bed head, or an hour of styling undone by a gentle breeze. I’ve never been that vain or fussy, but after shaving my head I can honestly say I had no idea how much of my mental time and energy was spent on my hair. It feels like ten gigs of mental RAM have just opened up, and that processing power can be used for better things. There’s nothing like knowing that I’m lookin’ fine from the moment I roll out of bed in the morning to the moment I go to sleep.
- Save time, money, energy — no more shampoo, conditioner, products, hair cuts, etc.
- The feel of it! I cannot get enough of touching my own head, or the sensation of water running over my scalp in the shower, or the coolness of wind or warmth of sun when I step outside. When someone opens a window, my head is the first to know!
- It’s an instant friend-filter. If anyone is shallow enough that my looks (I mean really… my hair) are a friendship-dealbreaker, then I probably don’t want them in my life in the first place.
- Hello, confidence! Having a shaved head is like a big-ol’ sign that says “I don’t care what anyone thinks of me,” and having that on the outside translates to the inside. Like, now that that’s out of the way, I can use my mental energy for other things. Like being awesome. And by being awesome, I mean unapologetically me.
- To check it off my bucket list. (Really, this should be a good enough reason all on it’s own, right? What better reason is there than, “because I want to.”?)
- To see every stage of growth from zero hair, to a tiny bit, to some, to more and more and more. My hope is to take a photo-a-day of how it looks as it grows back, and who knows — maye I’ll find something I love but never would have tried otherwise.
I wrote this list before I did the deed, as a way of cementing my reasons in my own mind — and having done it now (and added a few things to the list) I can say my projections were spot on. I couldn’t be happier!
Have you ever shaved your head, or wanted to but haven’t? How else have you stepped outside your comfort zone? Tell me all about it in the comments below.
I’ll leave you with this quote from a fellow youtuber, and a stop-motion video I made of the process of cutting my hair:
“If your insides are saying this is what you want to do, and it’s been on your mind for a long time, most likely the only thing stopping you is fear. Fear of judgement, fear of what you’re going to look like. Fear is a bitch and it’s going to stop you from doing some of the best things in your life, so I say if the urge is there, do it.” — Sorelle Adore